Challenges

Life is full of twists, turns and many surprises. I am learning each day to take one day at a time and to remember that God will not give me more than I can handle. I swear he and my grandparents are testing me each and everyday. Being foster parents have been the most rewarding and the most challenging thing we have ever done.

These babies are my world and yet I have no say in anything. I can only know bits and pieces of information and my hands are tied. This is hard for me to say the least. Working in the ChildWelfare system for 7 years has been a blessing and a curse in this situation. I know too much but there is nothing I can do with this knowledge; when no one is willing to help my kids and it infuriates me! As vague as I am being now is how I feel each and every day
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This past weekend we went to Landon's maternal grandmothers family reunion. It was a great day but a very emotional night. I spent my first night in a pop up camper...Jody's dreams of me going camping were crushed in one night! After the whirlwind of a day and the babies went to bed the hysterics started. It was the first time in almost 8 months that I did not feel like his mom but just the one caring for him. I can't even say it was the people around me because it wasn't, they were more than welcoming. It was a reality check that I needed, I guess?

I love my weekends because all of my loves are under the same roof!